If you don't know, who does?

Have you ever said that to someone?
If you don't know, what you want, who you want, where you're going, who does?
I'd really like an answer to that right about now.
It's just been a rough day.
I teach. I teach in an extremely rural, poor county. My kids go through so much. I've got one that has recently started coming in late. She's always been a problem but its gotten worse. Today when she came in I knew she wasn't okay. I held her, loved on her, and sent her for breakfast. Coming back from lunch she was just losing it. I kept her when we switched classes. I sat her down to talk. Do you have problems? Why are you late all the sudden? I got a mildly incoherent story and the tears started pouring. 
I just held her. Not sure how long. I held her and she sobbed. Thankfully my other kids did their work and let me deal with her. She sobbed and wasn't willing to go to class. Finally, I convinced her she had to go to class. It was all I could do to not sob. When they left, I went and sat behind my desk on the floor and cried. They go through so much. So much I don't have a clue about. There is only so much that I can do.
I try not to be too over the top. I'm still talking on the chat app. I've actually met some more crazy people and some nice people. 
Still talking to the one guy that I think I've talked to since I first got the app. He's married, little kids, and nice.
I just met a new one two days ago. He's nice. Single. Not declaring love.
Am I the one that's going to be?
All you have to do is a be a little nice to me. I fall over like a wet noodle. No wonder God keeps relationships away from me. 
I don't think I know what I want. That's a little scary. I have no clue where I'm going, what I'm doing, and who or what I want.
Tonight I desperately want someone to hold me. I would just love to be able recline in someone's arms and be comforted. 
Being me sucks.
Depression sucks. 
I'd love to have some clear direction.
#irisswiftdepression