This is not intended to be a happy place. I have realized that I'm carrying wounds. Wounds I thought were healed and scarred over but they are still bleeding. My goal is to purge. To have a safe place to share all the yuck and junk. To see my flaws. To see the truth. To hopefully, finally heal. I'm a Christian which will shock some. I know God is the Great Physician. I know He loves me and can heal me. At the same time sometimes I don't believe He loves me, and I never feel healed. I feel like I chose my chains. I know that's wrong, but I don't know how not to.
I am not using my real name because I need to purge. I don't need judgement. I am who I am and I am trying my best to be better. That's the end goal. To heal and let God work through me.
First somehow. Some way I've got to stop the bleeding.
If you find this great. If it helps you, great. This is however a totally selfish endeavor.
Welcome to the Darkness. Maybe we'll find the light.
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