Batting 1000

To be honest. I'm not 100% sure what that phrase means. I don't speak baseball. It was however the first phrase to come to my head when I got out of bed. 
Yep. Looks like insomnia strikes again. I caught two cat naps yesterday and then crashed at 10. I don't think I moved between ten and five when my alarm went off. Today was a good day. 
Then I came home.
Honestly nothing earth shattering at home.
There's this "Soldier" I met on this app. Widowed, child, orphaned and currently in Kabul, or so he says. To be honest I didn't believe him from day one, but he chatting was fun and lighthearted, most of the time, and it fulfilled my goal of having someone to talk to. Then a couple of things happened. First he kept trying to convince me he was in love and I was his world. Um, negative. Second two other profiles with the same pic he used came across to chat with me. The first time I blasted him, and called him a liar. He played the victim and I let it play out. I was playing a role and I enjoyed it. Judge me if you must. According to him he reported it to his general because it was a reoccurring problem. I won't even go into the fact that supposedly they were stationed together, but the stories I was getting weren't matching up. 
I never even mentioned the second profile I just chose not to chat.
Despite me continuing to tell him I was just looking for friendship he continued to declare his for me. Tonight it ended. I think. He started again and I hit back again. Evidently I've broken his heart. Ha.
Back on the site and a guy messages me and wants to know why I'm on a dating app if I'm not looking for love. It's not a dating app. Tells me I'm negative because I think there are guys out there lying and I think the only place to find love is the church. 
Like I said, batting a thousand.
Now I'm up again. I've got the feelings of insomnia hanging over my head. I don't think I can take another day of that. 
I'd said if I couldn't sleep last night I was going to exercise and wear my body out so hopefully that would put my mind to sleep. Guess I need to follow through on that. 
I'll just sit here wrapped up in my loneliness and negativity that I created by being human.
I just don't know any other way to be folks. I'm trying. I don't know what the world wants from me.