So I found a new toy. Wish the toy was a little closer. I'm on this social app and came across a guy looking for a dominant woman. That world is something I've always, or at least for a very long time, fantasized about but haven't ever pursued. He's definitely right up my alley and I seem to be right up his.
I mean I totally get why I'm into it. Not sure about him but we honestly haven't done the whole share life stories thing. It is all about control. I don't feel like I've ever had it and being dominant gives me complete control.
I like control. I like the idea of having someone who I can pretty much control everything about.
What does that say about my brokenness? About my salvation? About my psyche?
I mean a true relationship would have to be in the bonds of marriage. I guess that sounds wacked out but still. It would be consensual so within the marriage I have no issue with it. Two grown people making a responsible decision. I'm cool with that. I know there's plenty that would disagree.
It all goes back to control. I want it. A submissive gives it.
Maybe just maybe. I can dream big. Who knows what's in store?
He makes me smile. He makes me laugh. He begs. I like the begging. He wants me to be happy.
I like feeling happy.
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